Since I have been in Chinook, I have been invited to see and live life differently. I have had time to think about where I have been and come from. I see each day as it is moment by moment with highs and lows. Let me assure you that the highs out way the lows. I have been wandering how to move forward since the day I came here, but even in this season I am still wondering.
I know that I will be moving forward after this time. I’m enrolling at Pittsburgh Theological Seminary to get a dual degree in social work and ministry. When some friends found out that I wanted to go to Seminary, I got mixed reactions. I kind of expected that. The second thing I learned, which helps to explain the first, was I didn't get time say "…to get a dual degree in social work." Their obvious thought was I was going to seminary to become a pastor. The truth is, I don't know if I am being called to become a pastor. I do know when one tends to close the door that they could be call to ministry, God has a funny sense of humor and gets us to walk that road regardless. But my initial goal is to learn how to help people.
Looking back I see when I’ve had this “close-the-door attitude” in my life. After college, I struggling to move forward and I did not know God was moving my feet forward anyway. He was calling me to do what he wanted. Even though I did not see or understand what was being done for me by those around me. I had opportunities to help people by what work he provided me. Yet only when I came out here did I find this passion to help people. Here I was able to see what I missed. Before when I worked, I was more concerned with myself. I did not see the full joy I could have by being there for others and making them happy.
Now that I know where I am going, I still need to find work. I have concerns about this. But now, I know I will be able to help other in what I do. I know that I will have fun at work and I know that God will take care of the rest of it.
So why am I bringing all of this up. A few months ago I was helping out the 3 year old class; the teacher asked the kids what they want to be when they grow up. I know when I was a kid and I had no answer. I did not what to pick a job because I would be stuck with it. I wanted to be and do many things. What I’ve learned here in Montana is that many adults have more the one job or more than one responsibility or project to work on. I know that it can make life tough but I also think that it could make life rewarding, too.
